Today I wanted to share how I feel when I am hypomanic. I don’t usually know when I am hypomanic though. But these are some things that my family and I have noticed about those times.
I do things really fast. I need them to be done right then and there. I get really demanding.
I get racing thoughts. A million thoughts about everything will come into my brain.
I get a flight of ideas. I will write a tons of blog posts all at once. I feel more creative in those times.
I feel like I can come off my medication and be fine. This is not the case though.
I clean and organize my room out of nowhere.
I feel more active and happy. I feel like I can do everything.
I get really overwhelmed very easily. My senses are overloaded.
Everything is a big deal to me. I get extremely upset when things don’t go my way.
I get really irritable.
I find greater significance in things when they don’t have any. Like once a total came out to be $25.25 and I thought it meant something to me.
I feel more focused. Like on school work when I was in school. Baking and meal making too.
I feel more important than I am.
I feel like I can change the world.
I feel like I can do everything and join every activity. In school I would join and volunteer for like more than 10 hours a week.
I feel more impulsive. I spend money because I can and I self harm because I can.
I feel more self esteem. I feel so beautiful and superior to others, which I am not.
That is what it feels like to me to be hypomanic for me. Everyone can experience things differently. If you are experiencing anything like this please seek out professional help.