I have a gazillion paths and I don’t know which one to take. I could go back to school and risk getting really depressed again. I could take a break from school and then go back next semester. I could switch schools completely and be closer to home. I am not sure what I am doing. I know my ultimate goal. It is to go into public health but I am not sure how to get there at the moment. I am scared not knowing what my future has in store. I am not stable enough to make any big decisions right now but I have to. I am not sure what to do. I want to graduate from college and eventually go to graduate school but I am not sure how to get there. I know I keep saying this but I have no idea what I am doing. I am not doing well right now. It’s all making me feel hopeless again. I need someone to tell me what to do but I know I have to make the final decision. I hate this feeling.
I need to focus on what makes me happy now. That’s my family and blogging.Those are really the only things that I can handle at the current moment. I hate making big decisions anyway no less when I am under a time restraint. I have another week to decide whether or not to go back to school this semester. Then there’s rent on my apartment due and college loans I’ll have to pay back if I don’t go back this semester. I hate this. I have no clue what to do. Writing this all down is helping me feel better though. If anyone has any thoughts please feel free to speak your mind. I am not sure what is happening with my life. And again I am super scared of that. It is giving me loads of anxiety too.